This Is How I Named You Monster

1.

in the dark
our arms looked
so jagged
I could have sworn
they were
out to devour us
in mid sleep


2.

you only said
you loved me
with
both hands
wrapped around
my neck


3.

i carved my wrists
just to give them the lips
they needed
to call out
your name


4.

thoughts
no longer
were thoughts
but escape tunnels
from your touch


5.

I couldn’t remember
the last time
I had seen you smile
or the taste
of my laughter
or how
there once was
so much love
in this apartment
I could avoid
seeing you clearly

we were brand new
holy and whole.


6.

I couldn’t remember
never
hating you

or having wrists
who didn’t
shout out your name